Click Image To Visit Site Does the ticking clock keep reminding you that you are yet to become a mother? Has Mother Nature failed to provide you with a suitable partner? Wouldn’t you love nothing more than to stick it to both of them and have a baby on your own?
My name is Andrea Conway. I had my first child when I was approaching 40 and alone. I went through the same trials and decisions as you so I know exactly what you are going through.
I’d love to say that I spent my early adult life focusing on my career, but that wasn’t actually the case. I spent most of my early adult life enjoying my life and the thrills of being single. As I realized I was getting older, I met a man who I thought was the man of my dreams.
This man was kind, generous and loving, but he didn’t want to rush into marriage so we took our time.
One fight led to another and before I knew what was happening, I found myself single again at a stage in my life where I realized that my youth was gone.
To make things even worse, everywhere I went, all I could think about was that I was closing in on my 30′s and I still hadn’t had a child.
It seemed every place I went reminded me of this very unfortunate reality. My biological clock was ticking so loud that I had to wear earmuffs to listen to myself think. Having a baby weighed heavily on my mind and impacted my every decision.
Every time I met a new man, I would immediately size him up as a potential father. I was desperate to have a child and if I didn’t, I knew I would never forgive myself.
I never felt comfortable going to bars by myself, so I didn’t feel that I would be able to successfully go to a bar, find a strange man who looked cute, take him home with me and let nature take care of the rest. I knew I was too nervous to ever go through with it.
I knew myself well enough that the most likely thing to happen is that I’d go to a bar, sit by myself, get too scared to talk to anyone, and I’d go home by myself more miserable than when the evening started. I knew I couldn’t put myself through that.
I came up with a great plan to quit my job and proposition my cute boss before I left. But I didn’t even have the guts to quit. Sleeping with my boss just to have a baby seemed terrifying. What if they wanted to participate in the child’s life? What if they fell in love with me? What if they just wanted to sleep with me and then never talk to me again? What if they slept with me, I didn’t get pregnant, and everything was weird forever afterwards? It was too big a risk… Read more…
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